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Currently playing: Last Christmas by Beatles
Standing alone in the middle of a street
All drench in the heavy rain that is felling
watching as everyone walk pass mi
Feeling of loneliness struck mi every now and then
Just as loneliness has fell in, i was pull out of it
a beautiful face appear behind mi wit an umbrella
who is she who bring mi out of the dread place?
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Haiz boring day....well todai i shall change topic frm the usual stufz i did everything to an indepth abt mi......
My lifeWell 20 yrs has pass since i was born...20 yrs of experience had i got.....frm the naive days when i was in primary sch...those day was fun...but i know very little abt the reality of outside world...oni fun is in my dictionary....
sec sch day...
one of the best day i got still....getting rebellious but not to the extend....most of the time getting red card back in my report card and still hack care abt it....everyday revolve in basketball, hang out in fren hse, go out watch movie together....tat was wat my sec sch life....
inbetween after sec and poly days
well one of the great changes to my life begin here...work sux...i practially did 4 job hop in just 7 months....great rite...i hate routine chores....o'lvl result was sucky...so end up in ITE tamp...got to know a whole bunch of new ppl after i start hanging out in the arcade...u could say tat it was these ppl tat mould mi to wat i am todai...drinking and smoking rule these days....it was practially every weekend gng down boat quay and stufz if we did not have competition....btw it all started out frm para para...a kind of dance frm jap....still one of my fav dance todai....it was also the point where i got my first handphone and the time i start to stay out.... oni in the morg did i return home....strange my parent didnt even say a word abt it...just told mi if staying out just tell them....also got into fight is not uncommon...it was practically wat ppl would say as typical ah bengz...tat was my days...tat was the MS days....my MS fren half of them have disappear...wat left is but the still few yet fun bunch....till todai i still hang out wit them
poly days
strange...didnt study much for my 2 retest paper, eng and science....yet i manage to get c5 for both...genius am i.....lolx...thus i quit ite and enrol to poly...didnt got NP but TP....well could say was lucky to have TP....my first freshmen orientation was another turning point in my life....it open up the social side of mi rather...got to know another bunch of ppl which some has last all my poly days...these ppl is also one of my dearest frenz which i hold deep....those SU ppl they are...yr 1 was a quiet period...didnt join almost anything...finish study went home...yr 2 was the major change...run for intsc and joining of su subcom change my viewpoint and network...it was there i had my joyful period in the whole 3 yr...yr 3 was the toning down period...try to join in as much as possible...work hard on study....till now left wit just 1 more sem to go...time fly seriously
frenzworld is changing....ppl change for better or for worse....life is nvb a smooth sail....no one is an eternal enemy...tat is my belief....i nvb make enemies nor will i ever do it...even if how much i hate tat guy...i will still face him wit a smile and walk away...tat is y i hold my frenz dear....but thing had been changing...ever since my SIP period...those SU fren of mine i feel abit drifting apart....but still we manage to keep it in one piece....hope tis can last as one by one...each of u all start to disappear without a trace....feel like oni MR is the one who i communicate wit the most....
MS ppl....after the ms days half of us just disappear frm the radar screen....wat left is but the rest of us....as each one by one went NS....another few disappear...the most sad case was of my fren fizban or nick lee...got into jail because of an unfortunate event which till now i believe he would not have the gut to do it....fren for 2 yr i know him inside out...hope he is still alrite and by the time he is out hope can see him....but the most strange thing is tat after my bangkok trip...i feel abit distance frm the rest....i dunt know y...but tat wat i feel...it seem so hard to get together all of a sudden....
lovewat there to say abt tis topic....i been a samaratian for the past 5 yrs....helping out my fren in these type of distress during those days is wat i'm gd at it seem....haha giving advise seem to be my forte but as in my relationship tink i'm a failure...haha a dead zero is my answer....ya i got no gf till now...
my first crush was in pri 6 bah....jenny wong the name is...the first regret tat i had....i didnt really go into it and thus the chances flew away....even in sec sch thou different sec...yet by fate it seem tat her sec came to our twice every week for tech and home econ session....got to saw her...yet i didnt even approach her...thus when i feel like it...it seem she transfer out....
2nd regret was during my work inbetween after o'lvl days...tis ger chrisis...cute and funny...alway came to my work place to play...btw i was working in cyberstar lan shop in parklane.... it was during the last few days of my work did i decide to ask her...yet she didnt turn up and i forgot abt it.....i didnt know y i did tat...
3rd regret...not saying out the name but SU ppl u all shld know the history...happen to know tis ger after i got into su subcom...really wanted to be wit her tat time... thou i know she may just treat mi as a fren...did try to get her to notice mi more... wanted to ask her abt it...but it seem fate wasnt on my side...someone approach her first...well i was devasted at tat point...even to the point of crying and making a promise to myself...tat was the first time and will be the last time i cry for a ger....
well the first 2 ger....even thou i may not see u all again...hope tat u had found happiness and love which may last forever....
to the 3rd ger...it sadden mi to see u get sad everyday over him after u all breakup...seriously we all are there for u...dont cry.... it not as if life will end there...maybe it not the time yet now...u will find tat guy who u will love in the future...it time to move ahead....anyway i will alway be there for u as a loving big bro....
below is mainly for the one in mi...darn i dont know y i did write it...but i write it as wat my heart say....
well now my heart oni have one person...yes and she is my dearest li peng...know her for roughly a yr...in the beginning was trying to be wit her....yet it seem impossible as she was wit another...and as time flew...so does it seem tat i nearly forgot abt it....but tat time when we meet again...i dunt know y...but my heart just fell for it....crap i not gd in these poem stufz so pls dont mind mi....after all these...i even told u my feelings...yes i understand tat u are still hurt from devon...i understand u are tired...but i really really want u to just give mi tis chance....just tis once...believe in mi...let mi show u my way...i'm different frm others....they are they...i am i....i may not be the best...but i will be the best for u....to mi...now...u are everything....i'm willing to throw away everything...even my belief just for u....let ppl say wat they wan..i dunt care a shit....without risk came no gain....thus i'm willing to risk everything for u....even thou it may mean losing it all in the end...i'm still willing to do it... i will give u time to consider...during it i will prove tat i really care for u...to mi time is precious...i got little time left...i really love you....
posted @ 12:27 AM by mervz
Here wat happen for my freshmen orientation camp...
9/5 mon
Went sch by cab thought was late sia...kao in the end early...help the admin in their stuff...xena most suay...almost all register one nvb turn up....so all nvb register dump into it....poor peng haha she say so many guy due to tat....after tat went to rest abit b4 mass dance session...teaching of mass dance was fun...went over to teach some freshie frm argon or kryton...after tat was dinner...damn so fast and so sucky....went to collect log item den went out to cpf to prepare our game....haha the freshies all came quite on one....gd....went back sch den go bath den debrief...after tat slp....oh btw mr and ken come over and stay over wit us...
10/5 tue
zzz was suppose to attend morg PT but all of us wake up late...btw we reach there can eat breakfast liao....haha...den join them in their mass games session...boring stuff...ltr on went prepare log stuff and performance nite...we came up wit dance skit...den it rain....lolx....great...so had to change the games to scavenger hunt....manage to get xena in the end...wit her again =) ...xena was fun...the freshies quite on....after tat was preparation for preformance nite...due to quite a number of dance...we decide to change to game show....just b4 performance nite we got abit of quarrel...but ended it all well...the game "kiss the hippo" and "shim hunt" prove to be gd....all of them so into it....den just b4 performance was another our show...we decide to do our dance there den it was jam and hop session....after tat send peng to take cab den went for bath and debrief den slp....
11/5 wed
wake up ard 8 den went prepare for carnival game...not much to say...quite interesting...den after tat went over eat lunch den prepare sch wide game....change station to be wit wenqi cause nazeer and armin wan to do some games...wah lau all the freshies so on one....like to do forfeit tat much....even the GL not so on one...den it was final clash...quite nice the freshies all can chiong one....gd but it still ended abit late...subcom first to be out as expected lolx...xeon won again...den it was prize giving...xeon won in performance during games and argon our program fav won best overall...den it was emotion time...farewell speech and stuff...stupid kai and wei ren make mi cry.....kao they talk till cry and pull mi in also...our debrief was an emotion one....tis will be my last FOC attendance....so took tis time to take foto wit all those ppl tat i have know for 3 yrs...all those gd fren of mine....after tat went cpf eat at 11.30pm stay till ard 1.30 den went home....
TP ROX!! FOC ROX!!! PROGRAM ROX!!!!
posted @ 8:45 PM by mervz
Off for freshmen orientation camp...be back on wednesday
anyway here the update....
3/5 tue
gather at lounge den head off wit the rest to TM to eat b4 gng century to buy our shirt....after tat went back for briefing den it OTOT....all the guy stay up to watch liverpool vs chelsea.....kns boring game....waste my time....slpt at 5am...
4/5 wed
wake up at 6.30am...half dead mode...lolx....stupid need to help out admin com....like wtf....do admin work for the morg....den went off to prepare our station log stuff...after tat was teaching of mass dance....quite fun....den took our lunch b4 gng to tampines central for our games....lolx...most of them enjoy it....gd...heez.... the oni complain i got was salt water too saltry...diaoz... after tat went to interchange mac to gather b4 heading back...debrief was head den it OTOT liaoz...went out wit them to opposite sch to eat dinner...after tat went back to slp....ard 2am
5/5 thur
wake up at 9am...went to wash up....den prepare for our station liao....took lunch to our station to prepare...darn i nvb eat tat lunch at all....sux....haha got feedback our station most entertaining...after tat was like slack ard liao...hang out at our rm doing nothing...den ltr went down for preformance nite...one word....BORING.....serious i wonder wat the GLs doing some time....they are already not up to standard liao...den their performance...say franky is like shit....didnt the GLs help them out by providing ideas? haiz....finish liao was the mass dance den jam and hop session...den it was debrief liaoz...we were trying to push a new idea for camp so was thinking hard on question might encounter...got the answer at 2am...and we decided in the end to not continue due to the fact tat most main com against it....
6/5 fri
wake up at 7am due to tat stupid clifton hp ring so bloody loud...went to prepare for carnival games...quite ok lah...4 empire came....haha watch them suffer when they walk the foot reflexology stone path....lolx...after tat went to prepare for opposite sch games...but den it rain....so it was cancel....so we had scavenger hunt instead....darn the task we created are so stupid lolx.....follow artek ard as they complete they task....after tat it was final clash...got instruction to clear argon first....so it was like last yr....final clash start...subcom sing a song...den we chiong argon....it was like all the ppl was stun tio....they just freezing down there when we chiong....i even manage to go all the way into argon lollipod below and strike it.....poor argon...our beloved argon had to go out tis way....after tat we were clear by the rest lolx...xeon win the final clash....went back to sport complex....saw the result was like wtf...we thought our head will roll...but to our surprise argon was best empire still...so ltr we had debrief den went to mac...it was like 11+ liao....finish a meal in 15min den rush back home so as not to get midnite charge....
7/5 sat
nua at home play game whole day long...at nite when out wit kaka and ahmi to kbox...kao sing until mad till 3am sia at parkway....after tat when home....
8/5 sun
wake up raining so sentosa was out of the way...when to meet tik and mR...went down lau pa sat to eat..tik need to change flight to today so when to find their office...it was not open so when all the way to changi...she was on standby as it was full...so took a bloody hr bus trip frm changi to orchard...when lucky plaza and tangs to shop ard...met grace and her mum at tangs...melanie on the way there...and another fren on the mrt station...lolx so small the world....after tat went back to the hotel...i went back home....meet them at 11 again cause she cannot catch the flight...went to lavender food square to eat...den went off to golden mile to slack ard...haha first time when to a thai disco...haha alrite lah.....live band wit sexy dancer ard....and then playing of thai song + some techno...they fren was veri nice keep asking us drink their chivas...but we oni drink one cup as gesture....they also keep asking us to eat...haha ltr when back home at 1am
posted @ 8:46 AM by mervz
